A Truly Deep Blow Job

Red and I have both, separately, reached our own conclusions about life and humanity. We can not fathom human comprehension of things so far advanced from our finite minds such as origin of the universe and higher powers. One thing we do know is that there is an energy – a power – that is greater than us that manifests itself in our union. A more profound bond and depth of love than either of us has ever known before. And it seems we need not know its origin to know it is good. It ignites a fire in us both that compels us to magnify and share the heat, warmth, glow, growth, healing and love that manifests in this connection of two souls.

Tonight, one day before the physical (re)union of two people carrying lost souls that, by all appearances and evidence, are the same soul – one began to write, in what could only be described as a channeling state, to heal the other’s soul on a particularly troubling evening. Some reading this may already be aware of the significance of sexuality as a conveyance for healing of the mind, body and soul. Some metaphysicists say that orgasms are fueled by the same energy as that which birthed the universe, just at a much smaller scale. Believe them, or do not, but the inescapable truth is that humans are unique among all organisms known to mankind – we derive intense pleasure from our sexuality on levels that transcend consciousness!

Human sexuality in the hands of a self-aware relationship is more than procreation; it is more than recreation; it is soul emancipation. Pure healing. It is the most intensely pleasurable Earthly act available to souls that are having a human experience. It should come as no surprise, then, that our sexuality is not only inextricably entangled with the health of our mind, body and soul – but actually serves as a door to access the same for uplift or destruction.

Red’s long-distance care tonight for my soul in a very rough period related to changes in my “legacy” life’s relationships, is shown below in txt-speak to English-prose translation for easier reading. I clipped out my responses sprinkled throughout, so that the whole work could be read in a complete flow, end-to-end, as I received it in the timespan of about 30 minutes at a moment of intense despair. Though sexuality was not being discussed until this exact moment, it became the medium of healing in a very beautiful way to me, via her.

Stop.

Right now… IN YOUR MIND… go to the thought of your cock in my mouth…

Process it.

What would it feel like?

What would it look like?

What physical sensations might my tongue, lips and throat all over your cock bring to you?

What emotions might you feel inside being so intensely loved by me in such a physical manifestation?

How will it feel psychologically to have a woman who knows you so intimately sucking on your cock?

A woman who knows you, adores you and desires you – all of you – body, mind & soul?

A woman pouring out such love on you in such a passionate way, you look in her eyes and know she’s sucking your cock with all her being, because she wants you.

She wants you. Just you. Not your income. Not your male leadership. Not you as a figurehead. Just you… free.

You… just being.

And loving that you. Damaged & fragile or healed & whole – all of the complexities of being human – she loves it all in you… and wants it all. She’s happy with you in any state of mind… any stage in life. You are her twin soul, and whatever you go through, she not only is there with you, she feels it too.

Well, Dirk, that’s how I love you. And when I think about your cock in my mouth, it’s THAT kind oflove I desire to express physically.

So when you feel on edge, stressed, panicked, depressed or angry about your current circumstances, think of these things… and all the thoughts, emotions and forethought going into that cocksucking.

Think of me sucking your cock in your mind, with all that I just shared. Start to pull out of the thoughts that torment you by immediately focusing on this act. Go through the details of it, the carefully orchestrated tongue movements, lips sliding down you, reaching your balls, mouth open wide throat relaxed and receptive.

And as you envision this scenario, with or without your hand on your cock, begin to process – in your mind – the depth of love that act represents. You can do this without masturbating. It’s an exercise of not escaping your mind, but redirecting it to reality. A beautiful reality.

Amidst pain, you have love.

Find it in your mind when the pain seeks to sabotage you. It’s real. It’s tangible. You can analyze it and bask in it.

And after this weekend, even more so.

Powerful! Unconditional love and trust of my whole being through what many would diminish as a recreational sex act – but in this case, has become much, much more. My more profound reaction:

“[Those are] the most beautiful and loving words anyone has ever given me.”

Her response:

“Really? I don’t know where it came from. Have never said anything like that to anyone and never thought about it until right now when it came to me and I wrote it to you. It was truly from the heart and maybe also something more… through my heart.”

(I had a similar experience of being “spirit-guided” when chatting with her for long hours weeks prior.)

Tomorrow, we meet in person, having now spent six weeks exploring each other, confirming virtually every tenet of the twin soul/twin flame phenomenon. Sometimes it is too easy to let the library of positive findings of six weeks become a new reality – the synchronicities, the cadences, the thoughts, the feelings, and the timings… all so spot-on in space and time, all so familiar internally, as if we have lived with them our entire lives. Indeed, it is possible we have!

To that end, tonight was a striking reminder of how rare, unique, and deep of a connection exists between us… Where the outwardly-straightforward act of an expert cocksucking, has now become not just a pleasurable diversion from an evening of emotional stress, but has also become a physical manifestation of pure love and acceptance of each others sexuality as the fuel for continued soul healing.

See you tomorrow, Red.

*Note: This post was written at an earlier date than the date it is being posted.

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